I've been slacking off these days
i dont feel as excited when i draw these days
i'll be worrying bout not having enough time, is this alright, is that gonna hit the standard. I've learnt this before why cant i draw it like last time ..etc etc.
I've no idea , i'm clueless, i'm sure everyone else is , too. But there's one thing i admire bout them, thy just keep drawing,thy dont stop,but go on.
That's what i'm lack of, the motivation to go on. I'm tired of all these stuffs that's going around me and started making excuses so that I dont have to draw.*Ikr, bad...very bad....*
All the time I wanted to be more hardworking *Trying><* i'm actually lazy most of the time D:
but i missed out the whole point, i forgot to have fun while doing work D:
I forgot how to enjoy while drawing, i refer it as doing assignments and forgot that i'm actually doing wat i love the most.
ArRGHHH i wasted my whole sem without realizing that, seriously??
i finished assignment for the sake of finishing it
and that's just awful.
That's why my sketchbook is so empty *SAD*
I even missed out competitions,events and handmade sessions. the whole sem.....telling myself there's no time but spend my time online after finishing my assignments.......
Damn i'm wasting time. This journal is becoming my 悔过书 lol ><
pitiful,i had to eat a whole cake
D: [sorry for my nonsense i'm just trying to clear my mind by writing this journal ]
i shall not continue being a useless lazybum. I'll work hard and enjoy it harder ><
i wish everyone could go for a life sketch session someday soon><