Yes, new sem, new subjects, new lecturers, new class.
And no, no 'New' stress , its just the same old stresses.
No, still not sure of which direction i wanna go in future[manga artist?director?storyboard artist?]
Yes, Assignments deadline makes me anxious bout almost everything.
Yes, HAIR LOSS ,MASSIVE HAIR LOSS.
I can overcome lack of sleep, unstable timetable , busy lifestyle , but hair loss??!
i'm not talking bout little strands of hair, after shower my toilet's water hole is basically stuck, by hair.
I know it sounded stupid I'm actually reluctant to use comb because I dont wanna be cleaning up later on, but massage is important to prevent more hair loss QAQ
i dont know how to deal with it. let's put that aside.
I just wanted to do what i do best , which is art . And basically, i never thought of a second option.Until the other day when my sister told me : What if you just cant,?What if you are over 30 and ur career is still on its base and you could not even take care of ur daily expenses?
I was stunt by her question, not that i never thought about it, and i know exactly how hard it could be to achieve what i want. But you never know until you try right? I understand my sister is just worrying for my future , but ya, part of me just dont wanna think about it just yet . When its the right time, i'll prepare for the worst but hope for the best. All i can do now is not to waste anytime , and keep give efforts in my art skills. Theres's a lot to learn .
And no, I dont wanna be the bitter boring adult [although i might sound like one sooner or later]
Its ok to be wise and naive the same time i guess??
And by naive i mean, let you inner child shine and live on inside you, dont restrain him/her, that's how you will gain inner peace , when the child inside you are having freedom.
Do not lose hope! Its not really about , will i be rich or getting anything else in future , but to just not waste anytime on things that i dont even like , and live my life to the fullest with the stuff i treasure ><>< [mom and dad pls stop expecting me to be famous/rich next time, i cant guarantee that :/ ]
GOODNIGHT!
ps: Hair pls stay with meeeee TT